13-3-2007 school

There's so much bullying at the school of the boys.
Part of each day it's subject of conversation, and I'm not happy with that.

I've raised my children to be peaceful people, but I'm not sure anymore if I've done the right thing.

My autistic boy is afraid to go to school, because he's afraid he can't control his rage against those who make it a daily job to irritate others.

We had to deal with one of his outburst last nights, because the tension was growing too high to handle... the tension of having to school today.

At the hight of the outburst, when his older brother was angry at him and almost hitting him to shut him up, and his father was yelling and was about to loose control of his temper, I yelled that he'd better not go to school tomorrow.

Wrong!!! wrong!!! wrong!!!

I feel such a failure...