Sun at last....

august 3 2007

The sun shining in my face... finally sun!
What a way to wake up after a night of about 2 hours.
Can't be better after a rainy summer that was clouded all days long, untill we started to accept fall was on it's way, and we had to di without a real summer like last winter when it was no winter at all.

Sun!

So now all those bright blue towels are moving a bit in the sun, a bright spot in the almost dark green garden.

They were brought to me yesterday. From the sales...where-else?.. 20 of them.
The old ones were getting see-through-towels, so I didn't mind new ones.

Until in the deep dark of the night I found out they were spreading more blue paint than new denim trousers.
So I washed them in a bucket with terribly hot water and soap, to remove most of the paint. 20 huge towels.

Then I put them in the machine to wash again at a more reasonable temperature, with bleached denim trousers, which are not so bleached anymore.
They're outside on the line too.

I ate some bramberries to make me forget the pain in my shoulders and the feeling of being left out of life.

Everyone except my autistic son is gone to enjoy the beautiful weather.
The oldest at a friends house. I bet they are computering in the garden.
One of the other boys working.
And the rest making a trip with a trainride and a lovely time at a boat on a river.

It's the best time to clean the house... which I won't.
The best time to get some quiet... but my autistic son is watching a japanese movie and het gets agitated when I leave him alone too long. It will take hours to calm him.

So I'm doing some odd jobs at the house... telling myself that this is my life and I have to be content with it.

Inside is a little girl, asking when she's allowed to play outside again. To enjoy the sun, make a boat trip, go shopping endlessly and realise some dreams.

She gets no answer.

There is none.